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Scarlet_wraith: you have been host to every pain and problem I've had for the past two years. And Change is good. So bye <3
Because it might give me something to read...
- Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you!
"Sara is 984 feet tall" how true T.T
Ugh. Everything is shit. Christmas was shit. New years is going to be shit.
Mom picks at me about everything i don't do and notices nothing that I do get accomplished. Dad expects me to be at his beck and call to come and do whatever with him because he has no life. At all.
Paul is being an all-around asshole. My only real comfort is my friends and art, but I don't get to see friends nearly as much as I'd like too, and I have no time to draw.
Vacation, which I was really hoping to use as a way to get all my extra stuff done and relax, has just left me more stressed and more bogged down than ever. I dread going back to school when I still have this much stuff to do.
Je n'aime pas ma vie. ;-;
Hope your Holiday was better than mine <3
Game night rocked. So many people showed up, and it was surprising to see who played certain things, and who was really good. I played most everything there, except Madden. I'm not super at any of them, but not REALLY bad either. Some of the people playing were insanely good though, and it made me nervous so I sucked more that usual. Oh well xD
Law, who is my new friendthing, plays DDR on Heavy. Donny made it to the last round on Super Smash Bros. I didn't get to see who won the Halo2 tourney, I hope someone can tell me come monday. Ingwie (sp sorry?) Plays heavy on DDR really well. Surprising, as I had no idea he played.
Denise came also ^^ We played on Twister, and she tried DDR. It scared her, even on Begginner.
I played in the SSBM tourney, but I didn't do very well. Out in the second round.
In regards to SSBM, I think it's alot more fun with items, even if they do give an unfair advantage. Glenn didn't get to play as much, he was running around doing stuff for the team of blue-shirt wearing people.;-;
Dani came too! She played a little of everything, and just hang out. We tackledhugged WAY too much, and almost fell D:
I need to post Pics here or on DA of the loligoth-ish dress I wore. Mitchy started hitting on me when I wore it to school earlier that day 0.0; "Omg your dress is so sexy Sara!"
Snow day today! Life rocks as of now, except for the projects I must do X_X
aaah, last night was great. The movie was ok, but Kelly and Leenie were with me. And then after leenie got picked up, mom was really late picking up me and Kel, and guess who comes running up to me? SCOOT! She ran screaming from outside yelling "LUNA!!" and tackledhugged me xD I didn't know she moved but I haven't seen her in forever. It was great to finally know where she'd gone. She was with Alissa, and they had just seen rent, so I promsed to burn Alissa the soundtrack.
I really miss our crew from gym last year. Rachel went to votec and Scoot moved, and Mitchy isn't in any of my classes other than lunch. The only person I really see alot from then is Emily. I'm hoping since I got Scoot's Cell, that maybe we could all go see a movie or something.
Well, this weekend has been awesome. I've seen everybody except people from Hillsbourough and a few people who don't get out much. (Kyou!~)
We may be going shopping today with Tom (Mom's "friend"), wish me luck. It's freaking cold outside, but it looks so pretty ^^
It is nature's curse to women that we can't have gay boyfriends. (It's impossible D:)
BTSsonRa: oh and BTW
BTSsonRa: you are hot
BTSsonRa: I speak but the truth
BTSsonRa: would you rather me find you ugly?
MetalRenaissance: Well, beauty's only skin deep right?
BTSsonRa: that's true
BTSsonRa: but its not just your beauty
MetalRenaissance: So my internal organs are hot too?
I don't know what to do.
My RO hasn't been working, and it's given me a kind of forced vacation from RO, and made me see how life is when you don't have some all-consuming obsession to pay attention to.
I don't even know if I'll be able to fix my RO, but if I do, will I still play? I love playing RO, but It's a huge waste of time that I can spend way too MUCH time on. I really get alot more done when it isn't there. I'm also not even sure if I should try to fix it, and have that temptation there again.
I really would like to go back to RO, but I'm not good at setting bounderies for myself. If I have to deal with something, I will, but if I don't, I'll just mindlessly self-indulge.
I don't know...it's sophmore year. I really need to start working on my book. RO gives me this false feeling of accomplishment, and I get barely enough things done as it is.
But I miss people. I miss the wonderful friends I met on RO and the conversations we could have about that common interest. I miss summer, when I really didn't care about all this shit. But right now, life is making me care. I'm happy, but in a way different way than the happiness RO gave me. It's a happiness coming from renewed confidence, and a bit of a change in my perception of myself.
I don't know what to do. I also feel guilty because I spent on the 6 months, and now I don't know if I'm going to play it any more. I should really invest my time in a hobby that isn't so completely useless, but still enjoyable.